挪威的森林

      In any case, though, I believe that I have not been fair to you and that, as a result, I must have led you around in circles and hurt you deeply. In doing so, however, I have led myself around in circles and hurt myself just as deeply. I say this not as an excuse or a means of self-justification but because it is true. If I have left a wound inside you, it is not just your wound but mine as well. So please try not to hate me. I am a flawed human being - a far more flawed human being than you realize. Which is precisely why I do not want you to hate me. Because if you were to do that, I would really go to pieces. I can't do what you can do: I can't slip inside my shell and wait for things to pass. I don't know for a fact that you are really like that, but sometimes you give me that impression. I often envy that in you, which may be why I led you around in circles so much.

无论如何，我认为我自己对你并不公平。而且太拖累你、太伤害你了。不过我自己也因此受了拖累，受了伤害。我并不是要解释，也不是为自己辩护，而只是事实。如果我在你身上留下了什么伤痕，那不只是你的伤痕，同时也是我的伤痕。所以请不要因此憎恨我。我是一个不健全的人。比你所想象的还不健全。所以我不希望你恨我。如果你恨我，我真的是会心碎。我无法像你一样躲进自己的壳里去过日子。虽然我不了解真正的你，但我就是这样觉得。所以我常常会很羡慕你，甚至过分去拖累你，或许就是这个原因也说不定。

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